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yesterday was just an ordinary day, and i went to work at 3:45…

ever since ive started loseing, i havent been able to really show it off, other than you can see it in my face, and my pants are smaller, and my legs are lookin a WHOLE lot better. and also, its wintertime, so i cant really wear anything you can see my figure. i dont like winter clothes, they are just awkward. anyway, i was wearing a comfy hoodie and and my small jeans (well smallest ive been in lol size 13) and i was cashiering, and at the register behind me, there was my x’s friend. well, see he wasnt really my x… to make a long story short…. x pursued me, x got my attention, x led me on for a while, i backed off, x pursued me again, i found out x has a girlfriend, i stayed in denial about it, x played me, i told his girlfriend the truth.

so thats that. we were never really together, but that whole thing happened over 4 or 5 months. anyway, his friend who i met a few months ago when i was seeing x was the guy in the line behind me. he was like “Hey loni!!” its kind of awkward because i know HE KNOWS how x tried to play me, and what i did. im a “player hater” cuz i told his girlfriend the truth!!! AND i showed her text messages from her own boyfriend… so i dont know why he is talking to me, he should hate me! anyway, he was like joking with me, and i could tell he was checking me out… and i just kinda acted nonchelant about it…

well i thought nothing of it but it was a compliment of how i am really beginning to look good…  and i got home and i got a call from an unknown number. apparently he got it from our other mutual guy friend. it was very awkward. my thing is, is WHY IS HE CALLING ME! does he think im just some easy piece of a**? who cares, i made the convo uncomfortable by not saying much on purpose and he got off the phone haha.

i guess its a compliment that NOW he is interested in me, but thats all it is. BIRDS OF A FEATHER FLOCK TOGETHER…. and i know better than to get into something with a friend of the biggest a-hole ive ever met.

ps. i recieved my dream pants today, size 8… they are beautiful :)    they are pin striped dark gray dress pants. i will hang them up in my room.. its very exciting!! for all of you out there that are having trouble finding motivation, i suggest going to any store and looking in the clearance clothes, i went to oldnavy.com and found these 8 dollar on clearance dress pants!! or get a swimsuit you wanna fit in!!!!

its very motivating!

wow… i am feeling so good… i am not giving up. this is crazy. who knew i could do this!! i really didnt up until december 11th 2007 when i started this, and i am even more dedicated now. this weight really can come off, and i think a few people on buddyslim could use some momentum like that. just stick it out. the weight really can come off! it feels just like yesterday when i started and im one pound away from having lose 20!! im 33% done!!!

happy day!

I have realized that each day I eat what im supposed to and not cheat, i am adding to my well-being. Its crazy. even today, which would be a typical downer day for my past diet attempts, it is just the opposite. YES, i have not moved on the scale for a little over a week now… BUT its ok!!! and i have accepted that, BECAUSE it will ALL ADD UP IN THE END!!! yesterday was not a waste either, i ate what i was supposed to, and it DID contribute to my healthy living and my weight-loss, even if the number doesnt show! in previous dieting attempts, this would have COMPLETELY thrown me aloof and i would of quit. im not even kidding. but today, i woke up and felt the curves of my body. the fat right above the pants that use to hang over a little, is smoothing out. it is becoming just a curve, not a fat bulge!! and my arms, i hate the fatty tissue that hangs from the arms, that is actually tightening up. I have been choosing to play racquetball instead of cardio… i know, i should do both, but i just got so bored with the treadmill, i needed a change.             I am LOVING life. I truly am. this might be TMI for some people, but my sex drive, and my interest in men, has completely diminished, but i think it is normal because of the body changes. Oh well, i have no complaints, for the first time in my life i have become content, no, not even that, better, i have become truly satisfied with being alone, being by myself, and in my own skin. i really love myself, and it just feels amazing.

so guys, for those out there that have no scale change like me… just stick it out. IT will come off, and you WILL LIVE longer because of this day

do your best !!

i have been drinking wu-yi tea for 3 days now i think…. i am really enjoying it because it does give me energy and fills me up. i havent seen any drastic changes…but its only been 3 days and they say you dont really see changes until closer to the end of week 2.

my life, on the other hand, is great. last night i went out with my friends to this hookah bar, and it was alright, but i splurged off of my calorie counting. i had this baba ghanoush (like dip) with pita bread. and i also had like 20 of these chewy fruit chews. aaaahhh. bad bad bad. but,t he good thing is, it hasnt thrown me off track, which it usually does it i cheated in the past on diets.

im so motivated!! im so ready to get this weight off… i wish i could just lose it faster. how is it that people lose 30 lbs in 3 months… i have been doing this for 2 months and 11 days and have lost 18. yes it is a lot… but i ost 12 in the first month so it doenst even feel like ive lost anything the last month and 11 days. oh well…ill just keep trucking along…im just wondering if i should lower my calorie intake…ill wait and see what happens with this tea, maybe it really does speed up your metabolism.

ill keep you all informed!

i started my wu-yi tea drinking today…. cant say i am experiencing any bad side affects… some people call it “poop tea” lol but i havent had any… out of the ordinary functions lol.

it actually does taste good!! ill let everyone know how it goes!

i just ordered the wu-yi tea trial, people claim to have lost a lot of weight on it…. i dont know… the website has “testimonials” where people claim to have lost 37 lbs in 3 months, thats just one person… has anyone tried it?? let me know, if you know anything at all!!! cuz i have 14 days to cancel and not be charged!!

www.wu-yisource.com

i almost fell off the bandwagon today!!!! i came home from class, and i had already eaten a luna bar and a carnation breakfast shake, but i got home, and i got sooooo hungry… and now i am at 800 calories so far for the day, which is kind of high… BUT i still salvaged the day. i didnt go overboard… i stopped myself. which is verrrry good!!

TODAY IS TWO MONTHS THAT IVE BEEN DOING THIS…. this is probably the longest i think ive ever committed to something like this… and it feels great.

all of my other diets have failed… but i guess this diet is not a DIET… i have actually changed my life around. the way i look at food has completely changed. i have actually set goals. so for those of you out there who need a little direction, or need to see if you are really serious… answer these questions, because these are the things i used to say to myself,

I used to say “I am going to lose weight” at the beginning of a diet.  then, ask yourself “How much exactly am i going to lose?” <– this is where i can tell the difference this time. i always used to claim i was going to lose weight, but i never had an exact goal. that is what keeps you going, a goal point, not just an idea to lose weight.

I used to say “i am gonna eat better, or less” at the beginning of a diet. NO! you need to ask yourelf “what am i going to do exactly. what is my diet plan, am i going to count calories or what?” the answer to this is different for every person obviously, but for me,i am counting calories. i know my attitude is for real this time, because i have a PLAN. not just an idea.

AND…. lastly, whenever i would attempt something and fail, this is the question i avoided, and never even looked at. “What will i do if i dont lose for a week, two weeks, or worse, what happens if i gain a few pounds?” if you guys out there who are reading this have yet to answer this question, u might want to. the answer is NOT GIVE UP. and actually believe it.

we are always going to have a problem or issue with weight. most of us always have. so…. would you rather stick to something for a little while, reach your goal and feel great about your body, but still have to watch ur weight for the rest of your life, or would you rather be overweight and unhappy for the rest of your life.

i choose the first!!! i would rather feel good about myself and watch what i eat than be overweight and unhappy for the rest of my life!!!

WOOOHOOO!! WE CAN DO IT GUYS!

i can not believe i am not into the 180’s!!!!!!!! i weighed in two days ago at 189.6, which yes i know, is barely into the 180’s, but STILL… the number does NOT SAY 90 anywhere. i got so sick of seeing 199 198 197 197 196 195 196 196 196 lol… and i wasnt moving anywhere, or it felt like it… and i weighed today which is two days later from my 80 weigh-in, and TODAY I WAS AT 189.2!!!!! so i REALLY AM into the 80’s. and let me tell ya, it feels great. i have now lost 15.8 lbs… 28% of what i want to lose is GONE AND OUT THE WINDOW!!! im just so proud of myself… that i can do this. we all can!!!! im really beginning to see the changes too, physically… i FEEL lighter, but besides that, you can really tell in my face, my collar bones are beginning to stick out more, and u know that little divet thats usually in skinny girls necks right between the collarbones, well I AM GETTING ONE!!!! u can see the formation of a divet there

so exciting!!!

lol… the simplest things make me happy

…im needing some encouragement… i feel like i cant do this and quitting is becoming more and more tempting. i have not quit yet, and im not planning on it… but it is getting harder and harder…

plz..

someone help!

does anyone know any detox diets or anything like juice fast, or w/e to jump start your weight loss?/